Dread
23 Nov 2022Kalous
-Log Entry Start[Date: 23.11.3308]
[Location: ENS Blackstar, Itzamnets]
The threat looms.
Today is the last day before the Kingfisher jumps to meet Tanaris, godspeed to those brave men and women.
I just can't help but feel like they're all jumping into oblivion... But if there's even a tiny chance at peace with the Thargoids we must take it.
I was one of the people who were on the Gnosis when things went south, I know how it feels to be on the bleeding edge of xeno research and then have your whole world come crashing down around you at the hands of the Thargoids.
I have watched countless station burn as the Thargoids tore through the pleiades and beyond.
I've led my faction into war and have been heralded as a hero in the eyes of some.
I fought with Azimuth before the masquerade broke and then felt pure, gut wrenching guilt after the events in HIP 22640. I saw the Proteus wave fire from the bridge of the Blackstar and I heard the god awful sound that echoed from the black thereafter.
The team on the Kingfisher know exactly what they're signing up for, I get it. But it's a whole other event being caught in the gaze of an interceptor.
So here I stand, moments before midnight, on that same deck that I've watched countless lives lost from, that I've saved lives from. I think about my friends, what I've seen and what I've done.
I dread.
For those friends, for the crew of the Blackstar, for the Kingfisher, for the faction I've built. I hope for resolution, I prepare for war, I fear exodus.
I dread.
-Log Entry End