Cmdr Kasumi Goto
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Void Gazer
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Elite V
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Krait Phantom IY-09K
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YKE Technologies
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Independent
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Independent

Logbook entry

Exposure - 15 (5/5) - Over The Top

18 Dec 2023Kasumi Goto


Previous - Part 15 (4/5)


Meowers had placed the map marker somewhere close to the presumed location of the building and shared it, once we got outside the apartment.

"It’s somewhere... Over there. We're going to see it more clearly once we're close."

It was completely unnecessary, yet she locked the apartment and nodded towards the staircase.

I didn’t have much to say as we were walking, merely observing our surroundings, much like Meowers seemed to. Taking in the fresh breeze in what otherwise felt like a cooling summer day reaching its end. Jana, however, appeared to have something on her mind, trying to keep pace with Meowers.

“Hey, … Ina? It was Ina, right? Do you mind if I add you around here as well? You seem like a nice person, and I guess I have a thing for gentle giants. Even if you’re not actually that tall.” She briefly paused. “Oh, and if you look closely, you might see some of my handiwork.”

Jana was definitely much more of an extrovert than I was. And I could see that ‘handiwork’ going around in the form of female individuals I definitely hadn’t messed with, yet had either enhanced breasts or hips of varying sizes, or both. Some of them were confused and maybe mildly pleased, others accepting and, in some cases, flaunting their bodies… while a few more were quite annoyed and evidently looking for the suspect behind their expansion.

The latter type of those three were the ones that amused me the most, as they moved around a lot more while looking, which made it even more evident how they struggled to adapt to their new forms - particularly those with generous additions to the lower area. I couldn’t see anyone that looked shocked, which made sense, given the time that had passed.

‘You’ve definitely been quite active already’, I thought to myself. If this was going to remain preserved as a server, it would probably be better as one restricted to us mad three women.

Jana's appearance nearby, meanwhile, had interrupted Meowers’ skygazing and she looked at her, replying to the question.

"Hm. Like, why not? All this," Meowers waved her hand in a wide arc, indicating the entire virtual space. "Have begun as a place for Kasumi to explore her... Peculiar interest which you both seem to share. But I've had my piece of cathartic experiences as well. Never thought I'd love being like that so much, phah."

”Alright! I’ll send you a request.”, Jana replied, and looked around a little, mostly at the NPCs she’d played with… also forgetting about that friend request in the process.

Meowers’ stare equally slipped to the NPCs Jana had been playing with. Poor bastards! Yeah, certainly, NPCs could forgive anything. Especially in a mellowed non-aggressive generic simulation for a wide audience.

"Pfffft! This is, yeah, a little surreal and amusingly weird. Once I enlarged one guy's arse three times and it was a sight to see. Imagine a cartoonish spy trying to hide his presence and retreat to safety. Holding his newly acquired property in both hands as if it was about to fall," she stretched her hands out a little and imitated a grabbing gesture with both of them.

"Yeah, a weird thing I've never seen before, didn't even know it existed."

“I didn’t mess with any guys, but that makes me wish I’d seen it, because damn does it sound funny.” Jana’s tone gave away that she genuinely thought that. “Feels a bit like payback for every time they think about a woman as not much more than a body with which to play. Or they spend too much time staring at those places.”

"Ah, yeah. Totally yeah," Meowers smirked and nodded in agreement. "Those dipshits should certainly get their brains out of their pants."

Jana didn’t answer for a moment, and lowered her voice when she did. As much as was possible with Meowers’ head way above hers, but I was distracted with the comedic show of big women figuring themselves out too much to really pay attention. Which was a rather rare thing.

“So, she admitted… I mean, Kasumi admitted that thing about being a Thargoid hybrid. But she seems so… human. They don’t make it seem like that, like she is some… thing that shouldn’t be trusted. I don’t understand it. And is her real name actually Kira?”

Jana threw a side look at me, being busy just… feeling right in place, perhaps alive, not thinking about any of the madness I was currently caught in. Acting as one would expect a human individual, a person, to.

That question had Meowers thinking. It was my private stuff that she didn't want to talk about with other people. So, she shrugged and replied a bit vaguely.

“I'm an AXDF officer, back there, and I trust her. Whatever her real name is... She prefers Kasumi as she told me. That shitey Azimuth is good enough only at printing those nonsense pamphlets you could usually see in rubbish compactors or in hands of people who struggle to deal with their own shoelaces. Sometimes, upside down."

"Okay, fine. You don't want to go into details. Maybe I'll eventually ask her myself... if we get to know each other better. Here, or out there. I'd like to, but she seems... hard to get close to. Or maybe just a little introverted. If you say she can be trusted, then I'll trust her too."

Jana went back to looking ahead.

"Ever think about turning a guy into a woman just to fuck with them? But then, some of them would even enjoy that, and I don't think it's very fun, especially if they do. A little bit too weird. Maybe we should just get to that apartment roof."

"Pfffffthah!" Meowers suppressed sarcastic laughter escaped her lips.

"Have you ever seen that 'Find Friends Nearby' page? I bet, like, three quarters of those 'females' are actually played by men, especially super ideal ones or super makeup-covered ones. Ranging from young and curious fuckboys to balding sweaty bearded perverts who like dresses, high heels and their reflections in a mirror."

Then, in a bit more serious tone, she added some truth.

"And I'm in a relationship anyway. So, if you've been wondering about me and Kasumi, it's a 'no'. Didn't even touch her. I'm here... For moral support reasons."

”Oh, I didn’t think about anything between you and her, no.”, Jana truthfully replied. “The dynamic between you two is… more like just friends. I can tell, because you can insult each other and not get offended by it.”

"Ah, there's nothing like calling each other idiots from time to time," Meowers chuckled, replying. "But, yeah, only from time to time."

Jana paused, momentarily, distracted. Somewhere off in the distance, another woman casually found herself with enlarged bodily features all of a sudden. She didn’t look too amused, but not too upset either. Meowers couldn't help but giggle quietly... Again, at seeing another unfortunate NPC.

“Hell, this is way too fun.”, Jana remarked. “Anyway, no, I haven’t actually checked out that page. I don’t regret it either, with what you’re telling me. I only use some makeup, and only if I think it actually makes me look better. Like, a little around the eyes… only sometimes. Absolutely not putting on a second skin. And no thanks to lipstick. I don’t need unnaturally pink or bright red lips. Whoever came up with that being a “beauty standard” deserves a slap in the face.”

"Ow... Yeah, that's not my kind of fun but your enthusiasm is definitely something.", Meowers said to the situation of the newly enlarged woman, then commented on the other half of the statement.

"And as I think, the most funny stuff in that is when both of them think the other 'woman'," and that word was said in an especially sarcastic, grotesque way. "Is so interested in them that 'she' could forgive even being actually a man. And they meet each other in real life. Those two guys. Pfffft! So pathetic."

”Should’ve kept me away from Kasumi if you didn’t want me to discover that messing with other people’s bodies like that is fun. And interesting.”, Jana casually replied with a sideways glance, and an appropriate arm gesture.

“Well, really, I kind of knew already. Just didn’t think about playing with it until now. Both with …” She glanced at her own upsized body. “… myself, and others. But I might keep it this way only… in here.”

Not having much else to say to the subject of men pretending to be women, she looked around, for… not much of anything.

“Do you think we should pull another joke on Kasumi, or has she been bloated by someone that’s not her enough for today? Seems like we’ll be at the building you want to hang out on soon, anyway.”

"Yeah...", Meowers narrowed her eyes, looking at the wavy row of buildings following the street. "I think I could see it from here. The last building that's not a single-storey one. And the roof is nice and almost flat. Should be comfy for sitting on."

And, replying to another joke about growing my certain parts bigger, she shrugged with a silly grin on her face.

"I have no idea about her... Limits. But she might like it if it doesn't make her garbs go pop."

”Hm …”

Jana gave off a thoughtful sound while examining me.

“I am kind of curious how far her pants will stretch when they’re made to fit that bigger body of hers, before they might risk getting shredded. But it’s probably going to send her bursting out of another belt before then, and she’s wearing one again, so I’m not sure. Unless you insist.”

Meowers shrugged in a bit of uncertainty.

"See, I'm going to take an emergency staircase at the side since it's easier, and you told me you're going through the inside of the building. And if you want to have some more staircase-travelling complications totally caused by yourselves... Then... Who am I to stop you? Phah."

A look indicating a new idea appeared on Jana's face, and she accordingly raised a finger.

"I know how I'll do it. I'll start off and at least give her the choice to remove her belt when it does. If she doesn't, she can only blame herself."

She looked over to me.

"I think it was her who said we'd be going through the inside of the building, anyway, but sure. Let's go over there. I hope for her that nobody comes down the stairs while I screw with her body."

"Ah, you're insatiable," Meowers giggled, suppressing it with a hand on her mouth, trying not to alert me.

"Why, it's fun.", Jana replied, shrugging. "Besides, don't tell me you wouldn't have done the same, given the opportunity. Anyway, see you up top, then? Whenever we arrive."

We walked around the corner of a building next to our target one, and Meowers nodded towards the entrance indicatively.

"Anyway, here we are. And..." Looking at the sunset picture on the horizon, she paused for a couple of seconds, enjoying the view and foretasting the better view from up above. "Looks like we aren't going to miss anything. Yeah, I can be a bit silly-dreamy sometimes. Phah."

Jana walked off toward me when we arrived at the building, while Meowers left us at the entrance and went to take the emergency stairs.

"Come on. Let's go inside while Ina fights the stairs outside." And, with a lower voice, Jana added, "Hopefully they can hold her weight."

I went into the apartment building with her, going up the stairs rather than taking the elevator for… reasons Jana didn’t mention. I wasn’t bothered to argue, feeling somewhat relaxed and absorbed in thoughts, not minding the slight physical effort of going up a few floors while Meowers had fun with the - supposed - emergency stairs, outside.

I was pulled out of those thoughts when my pants suddenly pinched a little.

“What the …” I looked down and found they were wider again. And there was only one culprit, so I looked at Jana, mildly annoyed. “Stop that! I’ve gotten big enough times today already.”

“Why, I thought you’d enjoy a little surprise.”, Jana teased back.

I just rolled my eyes and went up a few stairs, only for the belt around my hips to tighten up further as they jutted out again. As did my thighs, making it more difficult to walk.

“Didn’t I say stop it?”, I let out, not even bothered to turn around.

“Sorry, but I can’t help it.”, Jana said, shrugging. “And you might want to take off your belt. There’s… going to be a few more of those pushes over the next minute.”

“Ser - “ A growth surge hitting my hips interrupted me. “Ah! Seriously? Just stop the damn thing now and let me reset myself.”

“… and I might have set it so it can’t be stopped once started.”

“Ugh, you …”

My hips grew wider again, prompting me to turn my attention away from talking, and to freeing myself from my belt before I burst out of it. Which was easier said than done, as it was already so tight in hips way wider than my shoulders that it was very difficult to undo. And I’d barely gotten my hands there when they widened even more.

“You could’ve …” I let out a strained sound as I tried to undo the otherwise doomed belt. “… given me a little more time!”

Jana said nothing and just stood there with something of a grin, and maybe a bit of a smirk, on the face, content to watch me struggle.

Every few seconds continued to add size to my already massive hips, making it harder and harder to work the buckle, while increasing the pressure on it. And that wasn’t to talk of the distracting tightness of my pants, that were also getting really stressed by how absurdly big I was becoming.

The only saving grace was that my breasts were unaffected. The belt creaked more and more every time I got bigger, threatening to break at any moment now. Luckily, I was just about able to undo it when the jump that would have burst it occurred - it flew off from the simple release of pressure anyway.

I still continued to grow further, and further, until my pants were basically up in every recess of my lower body, and were threatening to tear in some spots if I just moved.

“That… that’s a bit much.”, I said, feeling a mixture of excited arousal and annoyance, which was reflected in my voice. I looked at my backside. “Shit, it’s so big!”

That was an understatement. I could… practically not move, because the thighs were so big that I could not figure out how to handle them. Matters were not helped by my hips being so far from the shoulders. Being nearly twice as wide as the shoulder line, they could have fit Meowers, or be good for two people, on top of my pants being at their very extreme limit of tolerance.

And, of course, I was in the middle of the stairs. I sighed, and turned… my head toward Jana, feeling far too much movement down below even from just that little gesture. My pants, equally, protested and creaked way too audibly.

“Now that’s worth a picture!”, Jana exclaimed, clearly teasing me.

“Ugh, please don’t …”

“Come on. I’ve got to have something to show for Ina, don’t I? You’re definitely not making it up the stairs like that.”

I rolled my eyes and let her do her thing. It wasn’t like I could do anything without risking my pants tearing around my legs, or coming apart entirely. She started out behind, holding a camera up to be roughly at my waist level… while I had a hand on those super-sized hips. Then she came to the side that was most accessible and took a shot from there… also unable to resist the temptation of poking and sending the whole mass jiggling, which caused her to giggle lightheartedly.

“Oh, you’re so big! It’d be fun to play with that for a long time.”, she remarked.

I sighed, switching from left hand to right hand on hips without an answer. Because she was definitely just screwing with me.

“Smile!”

And she took a shot from the front as well, exposing all of me, and my annoyed expression. Then someone came down the stairs… raising an eyebrow, or two, at the very unusual sight. I just lowered my head while sighing, again.

“Please go down, and not a word.”, I said, waving my hand in the direction of downstairs, while slowly trying to shuffle into a sideways position, so the other person could pass without colliding with either massive hips or the backside. Even those tiny movements were accompanied by a lot of embarrassing pants-creaking and movement in that completely oversized lower half, not to mention forcing the big backside past the wall. I waited for them to pass before saying anything else.

“Next time you want to do that, do it in private between you and me.”, I told Jana. “Then I might even let you burst my belt.”

“Don’t tempt me like that.”, she replied, still in a teasing tone.

“Yeah yeah, whatever. Let’s just get to the top. Ina’s probably asking herself if we got distracted playing with each other.”

I reduced myself to normal - whatever normal was when your hips were the width of your shoulders, and breasts halfway between E and F cup for a quite thin body - and picked up my belt. A dangerous amount of stretch marks on it, even looked thin in places. Didn’t fit, of course, as it was now way too wide, so I reset it as well and resumed walking upstairs.

“Sorry for the delay.”, I said to Meowers when we arrived, from an access point to the roof.

“My newest friend just couldn’t help herself to fuck with me again.”

Jana stood behind me, widely grinning, while holding the camera with the evidence… and, clearly, still with the plan to show it to Meowers, who turned a little to look at both of us when we arrived.

"Ah. I guess, sitting on that metal roof won't pose any problems for both of you. Anyway..."

She stretched out her arm in the direction of the sunset.

"Look at this. This is simply beautiful. I know it isn't real, but it looks and feels real, it gives real impressions. And that's the point. Looking at something so wonderful, no matter the nature of it."

I looked at Jana, who… was also still enlarged, which I had totally forgotten about, then at Meowers. Also noticing that the emergency stairs were slightly detached from the building, which I… just didn’t comment on.

“Yeah, I guess we don’t need pillows or anything to sit on. Our bodies take care of that.”

I moved up next to Meowers, with some safety distance in case of arm movements, and sat down with my legs close and folded on top of each other. Didn’t want to receive a hand the size of my head to the face by accident. Jana sat a bit closer, legs stretched out, and held out the camera for Meowers.

“Want to take a look?”, she asked her. “It was fun. She got sooo big!”

Meowers was looking at the sunset with her eyes half-shut when a camera appeared in front of her. And what she saw on the preview screen... Was, presumably, hilarious, weird, surreal and totally illogical for her, in the form of a person with hips twice as wide as her shoulders, if not more, thus making her chuckle again.

"Ow, hells... How's that even damn possible. I'm not even asking how it feels, phah. Yeah, how does it feel? You've found each other, definitely."

“How did it feel? Ridiculous.”, I replied. “I couldn’t even walk!”

I shook my head.

“Damn, that was stupid. I should’ve taken away her control when we got done in that apartment.”

She is sitting right here.”, Jana remarked. “And don’t lie about it, you found that fun. You even said - “

“No, no, don’t tell her that.”, I interrupted her before any embarrassing confessions came out, then looked at Meowers again. Which was not much eye movement, since they were sitting next to each other. “I was for a moment thinking about creating a… kind of, accident, for you to run into in the stairs. Wouldn’t have been fun with a great big concrete wall between us, though, so I didn’t. And - “ A meaningful look toward Jana. “ - didn’t tell her about it, because she definitely would’ve anyway.”

Meowers clearly had her thoughts elsewhere, not commenting on me bringing up that idea for an ‘accident’.

"It's not real,” she turned her eyes to the sunset. ”But it's wonderful. Never felt so good, you know."

I looked out to the sun as well, closed my eyes and held up my head slightly, pointing the nose into the breeze, breathing in through it, feeling the wind and warmth of the sun on my face.

“Do like doing that every now and then. When I have the time. Really don’t spend enough time on a planet.”

I decided to lay down flat, crossing my arms underneath my head, resulting in me looking straight up. With the gloves I wore, that meant it wasn’t too bad to rest on the metal like that. And I let out a content sigh.

Meowers equally took a couple of deep breaths, enjoying the breeze and looking at the slowly setting sun.

"I do like that too. It gives you relaxation... Impossible by other means. Wandering through space is something humanity had dreams of for a long time, yet... Enjoying a sunset is what we humans do for even longer. Way longer. Something... We were meant to do."

"Real or not, the feelings, the impressions are real, and that's what truly matters. Both of this sunset... And of us, ourselves. And it's immense when combined."

I gave Meowers a funny look, tilting my head to the left slightly. As much as I could, laid down as I was.

“Didn’t I tell already you that this philosophical stuff doesn’t suit you?”

A remark made in slight jest. I looked back into the sky, as Meowers replied.

"And what makes you think a bit of philosophy doesn't suit me?" Meowers chuckled. "A good contrast for ranting, roasting, irony, or, as we discovered recently, acting like a complete wack."

“That contrast is why I said it.” I shrugged lightly while saying that. “But, you do have a point. This… all of this… was fun. A… really weird kind maybe, but, really fun.”

I wanted to gesture at the surroundings, but felt too lazy and comfy to move one of my arms out from underneath my head to do that.

“Yeah.”, Jana said, agreeing. “Watching you two, even if we only really properly met today… I might have had more of it than most times before, in here. And, I guess I found out I like big bodies.”

“Pf. Don’t lie, you already knew that before now.”, I retorted.

“Okay, I did. But not on myself. Might also not change it out in that ‘real’ world. But here? Totally.”

She moved one of her hands down to her hips, and began stroking them absent-mindedly. I breathed out deeply.

“I’m… still not sure if I know what to do about this.”, I remarked. “I really do like this form, more than I thought I would, but… if I changed anything, it’d be pretty permanent.”

I sighed.

“I guess I can at least always come back to this to see if more testing changes my mind, if I decide against it.”

I looked at Meowers.

“What about you?”

There was a bit of uncertainty and maybe even desperation in her voice when she replied.

"I've no idea frankly. I've never thought before that being that tall could be so mind-blowing for me and I'm going to totally like it with what's left of my heart. Like, I had an idea of it, but it was silly and rarely to visit my mind. But I see no ways to make it... Real."

”Yeah, I guess… making yourself taller is… a bit more difficult than giving yourself bigger proportions, you know, in those places.”

I sighed, and closed my eyes again, relaxing the muscles in my body as much as I could, feeling something of a smile forming. And a warm, fuzzy feeling spread through me.

“But hey, at least we had fun in here, right? And you get to see me look stupid and bump into people if I decide to go for this, which… well …” I remained silent for a few seconds. “I might still keep my normal body for a bit. Not everything about big hips and breasts is that great, and I do like it as it is too. More than I thought, really.”

My eyes finally noticed Jana playing with her hips in a slow, deliberate way.

“Having fun?”, I asked, adding a bit of a teasing tone to the question.

“Oh. Uh. Yeah, totally.”, she replied, sounding a bit… embarrassed, realizing she’d been doing that. Then, Jana took off her sunglasses and lay down flat as well, putting them on the part of the top that partially covered her belly.

Something about her appearance overall drew me in rather well, whether it was the green eyes, the short brown hair swept backward, leaving the forehead exposed - like I used to keep mine - or actually quite different attire to mine. Even if, currently, the cargo pants snugly fit a wider body. If I had to guess, her ‘real’ body also followed the proportions being just slightly inferior to mine, but still pretty decent.

“Well… what are we gonna do next?”, I said, then, throwing it out as an open question.

"Like... Here? Or in general?" Meowers asked in return.

”Here, maybe. Or overall. I don’t know.”

That was the only reply I could come up with off the top of my head, while Meowers continued..

"I think this... Virtual thing might be a good escape. Certainly better than alternatives. I could get to customising the rooms to get that 'being at home' feeling. In my free time. Also, obviously, enjoying being like... That."

"Also, yeah, I totally like the views. Could be a nice change of picture if they send me back to the carrier, or to some... Dull barren dusty empty useless dingy place."

I sighed, in a less pleased way this time, and kind of continued my previous thought train. “No idea where things are going in the… real world. With that whole damn war. I feel like it’s going to get a lot worse soon, so I’d rather keep having what fun I can while it lasts. Even if it’s just in a virtual space.”

I thought more, for a few seconds.

“Yeah, definitely going to come back here every once in a while. Maybe not every day… but often enough. Might make that place with the house my own. You know, the one with the sports stuff outside.” I looked at Meowers, assuming she even noticed with my face well behind and below her. “Which reminds me… I’d have loved to see you go up against a basketball hoop.”

I giggled at the idea lightly, imagining how the hoop was probably at head level with Meowers, and how it would react to her slam dunking into it. Then I looked at Jana.

“And you’re welcome to come around too, even if it’s just me. As long as you ask first if I want to have someone else around.”

“Sure. Would like that, too.”, Jana replied. “And before I forget about it …”

She sent the friend request to Meowers, as it had been a little forgotten between conversations and screwing around with me in the staircase. Meowers accepted the request and returned to her skygazing, while talking.

"Yeah, if there was an option for me to become like that, I wouldn't hesitate. Consequences? Screw them. But I bet searching for that option might be the greatest disappointment in my life... As if I didn't have enough of them, phah."

"Yeah, wish I could see it like that.”, I replied. “Every time I think about having this body for real, there's that stupid rational part of my brain telling me getting fat hips and breasts could be something I might regret."

I gave off a, not-quite-serious, annoyed sound.

"Why do you have to be like that, brain? Other than having to change all my clothes, and looking weird in public, what does it matter? All I'm gonna lose is a bit of mobility, public decency and the ability to go by unseen. And appreciate my original body. But I guess I could always keep pictures. And, honestly, kinda don't want to spend the rest of my life thinking about which bullet I need to dodge next, or whatever thing might kill me."

I looked at the sun relatively directly, as much as my eyes permitted, like I wanted to get an answer from it. But I knew I wouldn't.

"Ah, that damn brain...", Meowers chuckled quietly, still looking at the sunset. "Mine is a bit irrational too."

"And you, Jana? Like, it was an experiment for us both which you have found accidentally and joined."

”Ah …”

Jana sat upright, a thoughtful expression on her face, holding the sunglasses in both hands as she placed them on her shins, elbows resting on big thighs.

“I did say I was going to keep myself as I am in the real world. But playing around with a… ‘bigger’ version of myself, in here, is pretty nice, not gonna lie. Who knows, might change my mind about it in the future too.”

She looked to me, then.

“You know, Ki- Kasumi, I think you should do it. You might not realize it, but that body does suit you pretty well. Even if it’s not… exactly average. Maybe not right away, but after you’ve got a few more memories of it.”

I scoffed lightly, in joking manner. “Look at you, giving me life advice. Don’t look much older than I am though.”

“Maybe not, but this world does have a tendency to make you learn stuff earlier than you should. In this case, I say, for the better.”

“Maybe you’re right.”

I repeated those words to myself, in a low enough voice to not have the other to hear them, lifting my head to look at my enhanced form down below.

“Maybe you’re right …”

Meowers addressed her next comment to no one in particular. More likely, to the sky, yet audible enough.

"And if there's an option for me, I think... I should take it too. After all things happened to me, I should grab everything that can give me a bit of happiness. I have no idea what kind of an option it might be, however... And the searches are much likely to make me sad. But I can return here in my free time, and enjoy being. Something I always wanted. Maybe that's what this virtual world was meant for in the first place."

"To enjoy being."

”I do think we should come back here. Every now and then.”, I said.

“Maybe just two of us. Or all three, if we find the time. They say there are… unique places in the world. Well, maybe this is ours, and even if we get our bodies how we like them… I guess this is still a spot where we can fuck around to whatever degree we like. Figuratively.”

I sighed. Then… something changed. A moment of inattention of… what was in my head. Not paying attention to my thoughts. I could say something, both for Jana and Meowers, though, primarily directed at the latter.

“Hey… if you can… please pay attention to what is going to happen soon. Things are going to get worse. I know it. So… be careful out there, okay? And look at your… apartment.”

It was still active. And I dropped a… note, with my first personal log recorded since I had left Duamta, in Meowers’ place. Hopefully, she’d see it. Then the presence returned, but unaware. Hopefully, I could keep this hidden from it.

Neither of them knew it yet, but things would be getting a lot worse for me before getting better. And while I couldn’t see if Meowers realized anything, the somewhat confused looks Jana was throwing her way indicated that she realized, I was trying to point at something really being wrong. Maybe she’d even tell Meowers in some way.

I sighed, and simply gazed at the sun, trying to chase those intrusive thoughts about my real situation. This was likely the last time in a bit, where I could enjoy some free, careless fun, not used for anything, by anyone, so I didn’t want the experience soured by real world ongoings.

Yet I was only partly successful. Just like my attempts at resisting control.

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Author’s notes

Kira/Kasumi
Congratulations! You made it to the end of the wacky experiment that was Exposure. If you did make it this far and are reading this, but chances are only those interested enough to follow along will be.

What do I have to say about it? Honestly, I’m not sure. Might just wing it and see what thoughts pop into my head. (Knowing me, these ‘short’ impressions will turn out half a page long, or more.)

That’s what we - me and Meowers - both did, really. We tried to keep each other as spoiler-free of our respective ideas as possible, beyond the general framework necessary to build and orient the story around, so that both our reactions would be as natural, and mirroring those of our characters, as possible. And that’s the result you got.

So… yeah. That was that. Exposure - a weird, crazy, sometimes serious, maybe sometimes a little charming, but ultimately out of bounds story, created out of a simple joking RP interaction, and written by two absolute nutjobs. Or people that outed themselves as such during it, while enjoying every minute of the creation process, where our characters exposed themselves and each other to their strange desires, in a deeper way*.

I, for one, certainly quite enjoyed it, both writing Kira in her ‘big form’, her reactions to experiencing it, her experiments with it, and those she had to the giant Meowers(as well as the broken chair that still awaits fixing to this day). Even if I needed some convincing to take the initial step into the chaotic madness. And fucking madness you may call it, but hell, was it fun.

I’ll leave Meowers to add some of her own thoughts below. Regular scheduling of Kira’s own stories resumes now. And, who knows, maybe you’ll see some effects of, and references to, this story, in further of my writings… in what ways, exactly? Well, you’ll have to be patient. Spoiling it would be no fun now, would it be?

*And roasting of modern day stereotypes, that was (and always is) fun too.


Meowers
I'm sure many will agree that nothing beats cranking your weirdness to extremes, succumbing to your intrusive thoughts and playing with things you prefer to keep private. So this is it, the ending of our utterly wacky and experimental story about what kind of weird private interests a person might have. Nod if you have something like that too, something you won't tell that easily but something you truly like, phah.

A thing I personally find curious is how a few hidden variables clicking together could activate a chain of events that would soon spin out of control in the best way possible. That's what happened here, a couple of months ago, exactly. A funny RP'ish interaction between two characters and two authors behind those characters led to this story being written, and, for me personally, it gave enough imagination fuel to keep writing more and my posting schedule is now tightly packed for maybe two more months. So this little funny thing is going to have more character development consequences, echoing in the future stories.

And it slowly brings us close to another topic. I'd like to say a heartfelt thank you to everyone who was able to read beneath the lines, to understand what was really happening in our characters' minds as they used a little imaginary virtual world to explore previously hidden parts of their personalities. A background for an otherwise oddly entertaining escape.

So, as said previously, this story was translated from a roleplaying that happened in private messages and we both enjoyed it a lot, keeping it as spoiler-free as possible to convey the reactions of our characters in their pure form. And that's the main point. Enjoying the things you do, no matter how weird they are. Adding more positive moments to your life, be it a life of your character or your own.

And thank you for reading.
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