The Ovum
08 Nov 2023Danzra Le Clerc
I finished all the work I'd felt were unfinished and with all the artifacts won, I took the leap. So some thoughts on all that.Why does the sphere we are to be reborn into look like a giant version of a microscopic human ovum? Am I standing in a macroverse's version a womb and I am to enter the Ova and be reborn in the same the way we enter our mother's egg as it is fertilized and we are reborn as babes, only this mother that we form inside births us fully grown?
Is our universe, where all universe's join, where all possibilities join, is our reality merely a microverse to a greater being, their body being the macroverse our tiny universe is contained within?
This may be hard to wrap one's head around, but I'm trying to form it into words that makes sense. Is there a microverse living within me, where cells have thought and purpose?
Am I but a cell in a larger being? Am I the sperm of a larger being, a spark of life that will enter into this giant ovum and be reborn as that Creator's Starborn? Is this all about raising children, some of us good, angels, others bad, devils? Is the Unity a womb of the Creator?
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I have issue with all these universes happening simultaneously, simply on their own. We enter the Lodge, over and over, sometimes years later in the timeline after the original team is old and retired.... or murdered. The scenarios are different. However, how did we all get to the Lodge without any diversity? Let me explain. What if several centuries down the line, Barrett's ancestor hadn't made it onto one of the ships escaping the dying Earth? What if Sarah had decided to stay in the military? All the what-ifs would should lead to vastly different universes where the Coe member would be female or they might be backed by Delgado and Constellation's goals would be exploration for the treasures of the universe that could be exploited.
Despite all the diversities that choices in the past could result in, the Lodge is always there. The universes always have a Delgado, always have a Captain Tuala? Always have the same UC President? Destiny? Someone or something must be guiding all these streams down similar paths. Are we a test? Is this a supreme being or an advanced alien experiment?
Now to the nature of these universes. We are told they are all different universes, and yet, I walk into that Lodge and one of the first things Sarah says to me (when she's present in that universe) is that I seem somehow familiar. That poses two questions.
1) Is this really a new universe or has mine been rewound and the experiment is being played out with enough slight differences to record the differences in our reactions, how this plays out, or
2) Are their multiple universes but that the barrier between them is thinner than one would expect, as in each version of us is actually subconsciously connected? How can Sarah and Sam feel they already know me? Is this how Deja Vu works? Are we somehow remembering something of our other selves through a shared subconscious?
Barrett in one Universe is able to bring through a different version of himself from another Universe. He doesn't bring someone else, he brings himself, is there a subconscious connection?
How can Ervin even be his husband in each and every life when our ancestors could have made choices that would have nullified Ervin's existence in any particular Universe? How are the infinite possibilities of every single universe all funneled to connect to the Lodge? Put Tuala at that UC desk? Put Vae Victis where he needs to be in order to destroy Londinium?
Are the multitudes of universes just being rewound in time over and over to replay out this particular part of the stream? Why? Is time in each universe simultaneously running and we are jumping in at different times? Or is time staggered?
If the Starborn are being re-inserted over and over into each Universe being replayed at this particular point in time, are we meant to fix something in this part of the stream?
I may never find any answers to any of these questions, but I know that when the fatigue of my own years becomes too much, despite the gift of unending rebirths and lack of aging, when I feel the Universe I am in feels fixed and patched enough, then I will be the Pilgrim like the resting place of the one I'd found in that first Universe. I will be the one that sets up an outpost and I will finally live out my years there. Perhaps after then, after I age and die, I will finally have all these questions answered.