It's all starting to pay off
03 Dec 2018Ravos Longknife
3, December 3304. 0210Jones Dock, Achenar [Capitol], Empire
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I guess I should start this off...I don't know, "Captains Log". Heh...honestly, I don't know why I am so compelled to get this down. I just made a, Pilgrimage, I think they called it back in ancient times? Anyway, the 10th has done a lot for me and gotten me established well enough to the point I can function as a competent pilot on my own. I was promoted to Squire the other day, whatever that means, and a bunch of the guys at the pub told me that this is usually the point in a pilots career where they travel to Achenar to formally pledge myself to the Empire and our faction leader, Arrisa Lavigny-Duval. I only know this broad on nothing but her name and reputation, but apparently I am supposed to live, breathe and die for her should she demand it of me. Shit...a rim-world scum feeder like me, pulled of the streets now pledging myself to some chick hundreds of Light-years away, who'd a thunk it? But seriously, when I jumped into the system, that gorgeous star just took my breath away, I never would have known such a beautiful thing could be hiding in Empire space. Then the Line of the Duvals, that was something else...kinda put things into perspective about not just the empire, but the heritage and lineage behind it.
Maybe I should get to the point. I left the CD-62 136 about a day ago, only three jumps but it still seemed like forever, but nothing compared to the expedition I just came back from. Five. Million. Creds. I'm getting good at this exploration shit, the old man would be proud of me if he were still alive. It really is starting to pay off, all my debts are paid, I have two beautiful ships to my name and a real home on Tavares Point, thanks to Admrial Tex and the 10th. If only it all meant something...
I miss Erica, and my mom. I never met my biological father so I can't really miss him, can I? I don't know what happened to them after Mr. Shwisher pulled me off the street and made me a loadie on one of his merchant boats. Last I saw of them, mom was working her fingers to the bone as a seamstress trying to make ends meet for me and my sister. Erica, she was only a few years younger than me, so I don't know. Needless to say, I miss them both and I hope, when my time is served, I can make my way back out to Aditi to find them. If they are dead, then what was all this trouncing around the galaxy for anyway? Cheap thrills? Damn!
And Clover...the only woman I've ever loved, sucked out into space when my first ship was opened to space thanks to some raiders. Why wasn't I good enough? I was supposed to protect her...DAMN!!!
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Shit, this stupid thing is still recordi-
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