Perseus Arm Expedition Log 27
16 Aug 2020Gkar_falcon
[Log started 16 0134 Z AUG 3306]completing system survey of Clookao OR-W c4-22
collected selenium on Clookao OR-W c4-22 9 g a
Blew myself up
[Log finished 16 0250 Z AUG 3306]
So my 4 year old son has wonderful timing.
I had just finished collecting selenium, and docked the SRV and taken off. Hit my key binds for Select Next System, 100% Throttle and Engage Hyperspace, and got all the warnings because I forgot I hadn't re-plotted my route from log in, my landing gear was still down and I was still mass locked because I'm only about 100m from the surface.
During all of this my son was in the kitchen pantry because he has been learning to read and was reading some of the boxes. In the process of trying to do this, he moved something that caused a glass jar of instant coffee to be knocked out of the cupboard and it smashed on the floor. Scared the piss out of me.
I've immediately stopped worrying about what I'm doing in game, and raced over to pick him up as I was the only one in the house wearing shoes. He's devastated. He had already broken a few things today, which were easily fixed, but this made a mess and I was shouting at him to not move. My wife and I get him into the bathroom, clean up his feet and legs, checked to make sure he hadn't walked on glass shards, and looked for any cuts. He had a small one on his shin, but was otherwise unharmed.
I go out to the kitchen, sweep up enough to get a band-aid (bandage) for his cut, put it on his cut, then return to finish cleaning and dispose of the debris. When I finished all of this I returned to the PC to see the rebuy screen. 4 weeks of exploration gone. I only get a couple of hours a day. I'd been feeling a bit depressed for the last week, hadn't managed more than a few minutes in game before I just didn't feel like it any more. Today was the first time in nearly a week that I felt good, that I felt like I could achieve. I hadn't achieved any more. This has put me lower than were I was at the start of the week. That screen represented over 16,000Ly of exploration, 4 weeks of my time, something I don't have a whole lot of, basically wasted. And it hurts, a lot more than I think it should, after all, it's only digital 1's and 0's.
I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know how I should feel. I just don't know. And it sucks.