#0002 3306-09-12 03:00:41 | Not the first, nor the last
12 Sep 2020Austreelis
Today was a big day. Some veteran Alchemy Den members introduced us, the newcomers, to some very important people. We call them the engineers, and they are said to be very skilled technicians able to improve our hardware's performance a lot.I got along especially well with Elvira Martuuk, a retired explorer living in autarky with her team in the Khun system. She's a bit weird, but cute, in some way. She can talk about alien stuff and charlatan's forgeries for hours, literally. Earthling used to do the same since the second half of the 20th century, a period I am very fond of obviously, and we chatted about that so much I actually delayed the trip ... I feel a bit bad because Victoria, one of the trip's helm CMDR, has been blaming herself for the setbacks, but I clearly made everyone wait here ...
Anyway, still haven't mention the best part of the day: I almost died :D
In the middle of this journey, we stopped at Nervi 3A, where the Mount Neverest, the tallest mountain near the bubble, is. We tried to climb it, with our tiny Scarab SRVs. Those things are fast and light, and thanks goodness the planet's gravity is about then times less than that of the Earth. But God is this mountain steep.
Also, did I mention we did this in complete darkness ?
In fact, no one actually made it. We stumbled and rolled upon each other, trying to find a path to the top. Shenanigans with friends are fun, but I finally gave up when I was out of fuel, my pretty purple SRV completely broken down after several hundred meters falls. Of course I showed off by boarding my flashy and fiery Imperial Courier on a 45 degrees incline. And we continued without a hitch.
Truth is: I was freaking anxious the whole climb, and I pushed myself beyond my limits.
I took risks that may have been fatal today, and while everything is fine right now, their impact is bothering me. this has exhausted me way more than it should have, and I've been paying the consequences since then. I sarcastically laugh about almost dying, but that scares the shit out of me. I stopped bounty hunting and pirating for a living because I was unable to control any machinery or ship for three days if the life support ever malfunctions. I just quit for mining. Less stressful, and in fact even more profitable.
I actually loved dogfighting in Morgan's Krait, or my trusty sidey. The adrenaline, the accelerations, and the smell of melted wire sheath. Stimulating all my senses at the same time.
I bought my Imperial Courier because it was sold to me as a fast and finicky small ship, with great combat abilities. But I don't know what to do with it really... I can't handle the stress anymore...
It's not the first time I almost died. Certainly won't be the last, as I seem to have a talent for that. Guess it was slightly better this time: first time I almost died for fun. With frens.