Searching for Answers #14: Morbid curiosity or plain stupidity?
26 Dec 2020Patrick Bietruch
Another entry from my father's here.I just can't believe it. I had to read his last entry a few more times after publishing it because I could not believe how he used us. I am so angry at him. If you remember his words from that entry, he said that he wants us to be all of a sudden fine and dandy with the fact that he left us on so many occasions in the past to pursuit some dumb goal with his murderer friends! Not only that, he wanted to sneak out silently so that we wouldn't even notice him leaving, back in 3286! Good thing he failed at that too, like he failed at being a father, and instead got into an argument with me and my mother! Even called himself a coward, damn right he is one..
> dracut: Scanning devices sda2 for LVM logical volumes sysvg/root sysvg/swap
> dracut: inactive '/dev/sysvg/root' [28.88 GiB] inherit
> dracut: inactive '/dev/sysvg/swap' [1.00 GiB] inherit
>>> INITIALIZING PERSONAL DIGITAL ASSISTANT <<<
> Identifying user
> Current user: Christopher Bietruch
> Password: **********
> dracut: rd_NO_MD: removing MD RAID activation
> ata_piix 0000:00:01.1: version 2.13
> ata_piix 0000:00:01.1: setting latency timer to 64
> scsi0 : ata_piix
> scsi1 : ata_piix
> scsi 0:0:0:0: Direct-Access ATA QEMU HARDDISK 0.12 PQ: 0 ANSI: 5
> virtio-pci 0000:00:04.0: PCI INT A -> Link[LNKD] -> GSI 11 (level, high) -> IRQ 11
> Connection established
>>> ACCESS TO PERSONAL LOGS LIMITED <<<
>>> PERSONAL LOG NUMBER 00013 ACCESSED <<<
Personal journal
Entry #151
December 24 Year 3285
Ship designation: Cobra MkIII Class Vessel - ID: "OR-10N"
Galactic coordinates: 5.28125 / -33.28125 / 47.75
System name: Nona
One week left until departure.
This year was probably one of the best years of my life. In the end, I was able to spend time at home with Patricia, just like the good old times when we first moved in. No arguments, no quarrels, no conflicts. The only thing I miss is Patrick, who seems to have closed in on himself. I still haven't got to him, I want to but I'm afraid it doesn't matter anymore. I doubt I can fix my relationship with him in time.
I love them both and feel like what I'm doing is wrong. And yet I do not back down. Morbid curiosity or plain stupidity?
> Connection lost
> Session end