Log Entry #1.
02 Jun 2021Amy "Silent" Silva
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Personal Log #1
CMDR Amy ''Silent'' Silva
Star Date: 6/2/3307
Location: Ay Indi, Farkas Dock
Transcript:
Well, how do I start? I'm not sure if I'm doing this right. The only reason I'm writing this down is because my latest hire David recommended that I start documenting things. Something about being able to look back on the things I've done in the future or something like that. Anyway, here goes. It's been a while since I left home. I have to admit, I'm feeling a little homesick. No turning back now though. I'll have to lay low for a bit before I can return. If at all that is. I've been in Ay Indi for a while now, I can't exactly remember for how long. I'm not the best at keeping track of time. Live in the moment as they say. Been barely scraping by, doing odd jobs here and there. So far I've done a bit of asteroid mining, a little bit of courier work as well. Though, lately, I've been doing a lot of bounty hunting.
I bumped into David at the bar a few days back, He's quite the experienced fighter. Experienced bounty hunter, looking to stay under the radar. Originally I hired him to man the fighter I have on my mining vessel. you know, as added security. Having a full cargo bay of goodies tends to attract unsavory attention. He's happy working for me for nine percent of my earnings per job. With his help, I earned enough to get the Diamondback scout. Outfitted it for bounty hunting. David suggested hunting pirates instead of being the ones hunted. He says the risk is well worth the pay and he's not wrong.
We've done a few bounty hunting jobs in the neighboring systems. Well, I say a few but we've must have taken down at least a hundred or more ships. I'm not proud of it, but credits are credits. David said it's just how it is out here. I'd rather not kill, back home I kept the living alive. It's a dog-eat-dog world out in the void. Something I'll have to get used to. I just try not to think about all the killing but it gnaws at the back of my mind. I'm not sure how David seems to brush it off like it's nothing. I find it hard to sleep at times. The guilt keeps me tossing and turning.
David caught me crying last night. I thought he was asleep. He tells me not to feel any guilt for the people we kill. Says it's all legal and they'd not lose sleep over killing us. I guess he's right. But still, it just feels wrong. I guess I'll get used to it in time, but I'm not sure I can keep it up. Every time I see the ships explode, every blinding flash of light and every thunderous boom that rattles the cockpit makes my heart leap into my throat.
I purchased an Alliance Crusader today. It's the biggest ship I've ever piloted. David says it'll help with the bounty hunting. Stronger hull, more weapon hardpoints too. I'm still not sure about this killing business. I figure if I decide to give up the bounty hunting jobs, I can retrofit the ship for cargo or passenger runs. Gives me the option to at least.
End of Log.