Sleeping Adrift
19 Jan 2022Rixses
Back at Robigo. Again. Beebbs chose to stay station side at Houser's to figure out whatever that was at Svarogich. So, I'm out here running suits from the Mines out to Sothis again. Kinda glad to be alone for a bit. Time to think.It's been a while since I've slowed down. Since I got back to the bubble, I've been jumping from one "emergency" to another without sparing a moment to think. But it's quiet and I'm alone now. A good time to let my thoughts wander around a bit. Basic routine right now. Get up, eat, drink, shit, exercise. Dock at the mines and load up suits. Run out and back without getting scanned. Repeat...
Repeat...
Repeat...
I'm... Something like ten days into this routine now. Maybe eleven. I think I've lost count. I haven't been getting any sleep at the station. Nightmares, restless exhaustion, the feeling of people nearby. Time for a break. After I unloaded the last set of suits I departed without filing a flight plan. Not too atypical for an independent pilot. I just need to get away for a bit. Have some time with my thoughts.
I drop from super cruise a few thousand light seconds from anything. Empty space. Have you ever slept out in the void? Most can't. At least, not without a crew around. Space madness sets in too quick. But I like it. Truely alone. So far out from everything that not a single person would ever just happen by. I set the ship to a slight tumble, like I'm sitting on a planet watching the stars go by, and shutdown everything except life support. Dead and adrift.
Exercise, eat, sleep. Repeat... Repeat...
I started doing some low-key maintenance since I had all the systems shutdown. The ship is in pretty good shape since all it does is run back and forth for the suits. But it's meditative. Thinking back about my failed expedition. About how my brother suddenly disappeared without word. How the Thargoids have been pushing deeper into our space. How I ended up saddled with Beebbs again...
Dead and adrift. Watching the... Night sky... Yeah... The night sky drift past as I finally get some rest.