A Place of Longing.
28 Sep 2023Silvia Sharpe
Made it to Colonia with very little items of interest or note. Well that is if you find the near death experience of getting a little too close to a neutron star nothing of interest. Just another day in the life of explorers and travelers. Upon arrival mom and dad had loads of gifts for the three of us. Melli couldn't have been anymore excited to see them. Little ball of fluff went crazy jumping all over them and licking them. Her chatter was soo intense I thought for a moment I might go crazy.Venus has been distant the last few days. Not because she doesn't want to be around me but because she feels guilty for my abduction. It's still hard to think about it. Mom and dad have been soo supportive during this transition. They have even gone as far as cut out Jackson from the family, placing a bounty on his head of a sizeable amount. The Imperial courts are working through the list of crimes and evidence found by Kira. All we can do is wait for the message stating Venus' charges have all been cleared and her title restored.
She may act like it doesn't bother her but deep down I know that title holds soo much importance to her. It's all she has left of her family. Her legacy is at risk of being forgotten and it is wearing on her. I don't think we will return to the bubble for quite sometime, but if we do it'll be in secret.
Colonia is nothing like my home. I feel detached from reality and the threat of the Thargoids is non-existent out here. I look out back on the people I met and the friends I made along the way and I feel my heart break. I have given up my entire world to stay safe, to keep Melli safe, and keep my friends safe. But what does it mean to be safe? Is loneliness and isolation really safe? Is it truly the right thing to do? I want to go back but mom says to give it time. Dad tells me I worry too much.
Putting this all out there for the universe to see is a vulnerability that many never feel. My thoughts my emotions all just written out. I sit here staring out the window at the yellow star overhead and find myself longing to explore the stars. I want to die amongst the brilliantly gleaming diamonds in the sky. My life is my own and I am lucky to share it with an amazing woman such as Venus. I told mom and dad we are going to go on an adventure and they both smiled and said we'd have a place when we returned.
A journey into the abyss and a signal beacon sent to our friends is all that will remain. Fly safe, live dangerously. I am going to miss you all.