Musings of Recent Events
30 Apr 2018Kyla Emmerich
Is this going to be my life now? Running away from my problems? That seems to be the trend.Up until I was drugged by Ronium and his thugs, I laughed in the face of danger. I dared it to come to me, just so I could make it eat engine plasma as I disappeared into the black. I took delight in leaving authorities and pirates alike in my wake. It made me feel alive... Unstoppable even.
I mean, sure. Sometimes I've been a bit clumsy. I've been slapped on the wrist for carrying illegal stuff around. I've paid fines. Hell, I've even spent a week in a slammer before until the local cops decided they had bigger fish to fry and wasn't worth the legal costs getting me a conviction (it was a rather poor part of space) and sent me on my merry way while making me promise not to do it again.
I guess you could say life as a smuggler is always running away, and you'd be right. But this is different.
After I escaped that crashed slave ship, I went home then attempted to run away to Colonia. I wasn't going to spend long there, but I wanted to get away from society for a while. I ran away from my issues.
Then only recently, his thugs found me again and almost reduced Moonshot and myself to slag. I ran to Inara and I hid in Jemine's flat. I didn't leave for ages. I was a hermit. I'm sure she got sick of me before long...
And then I ran to the Pleiades once I was sure the thugs got bored of waiting for me to appear. Did they follow me? I don't know. I met an alien which was probably one of the most terrifying moments of my life, but it didn't shoot. It just flew off. I guess I didn't have what it was looking for.
I unloaded my experience to the first person I made eye contact with. He seemed agitated with my interrupting his quiet drink, but he listened. Then he said something - "you ain't the only one runnin' from something darlin'."
To most that probably doesn't mean a lot, but it stuck with me. I think it made me realize... That's all I have been doing for the past months - running away. Those guys are probably still out there looking for me, but what else can I do? I'm not a killer. I haven't shot anyone in my life (even though I carry a pistol around).
I don't like it.