Considerations.
05 Feb 2018Leogulous
Getting nearer now; around 14,000ly out from the Colonia Region. My trepidation is rising, so much so that I have spent three days in complete shutdown on this cold ball of uninspiring ice. I feel confused and backed against a wall, as if the full gravitational force of a black hole had hooked me to within metres of the edge of its event horizon. I was in emotional stasis, in that half life of decision before the choice; the moment before the jump that stretches to infinity...I hovered between these thoughts, twitching in the mind, barely breathing and almost in a state of meditation. I had found on the longer scanning runs that meditation could be an ally. Those where the simpler times. There I was trying for the ordinary, again the mental small talk programs and subroutines fired into nominal operating capacity, trying to instil much needed wellbeing protection protocols into a mind that was darkening...Please...make the choice.