Personal: a state of things.
21 Feb 2023Meowers
Actual date: 25.02. Made that timestamp to prevent interfering with other people's latest entries with that out-of-character post, though I felt like I needed to write it to make things clear for those who follow my logs.I stopped playing actively more than half a year ago. From my perspective, E:D is a dying beast that's decomposing alive while undergoing some kind of palliative procedures. And, I guess, they will pull the plug right after whatever agreements and contracts, which are keeping the management from doing so right now, finally expire. Sadly, I've missed the 'golden age' of this game and this website, starting two years ago, but that's totally usual for me and my experience with games. I'm kind of a slow person, always late to catch the funny stuff, lol. However, it did provide me with some good memories that I'd like to keep, and I want it to leave it like this. Literally, leaving it before starting to hate it.
The story that I haven't finished posting yet is facing another delay, and, frankly, I've lost a motivation to continue, even if it's somewhere around 2/3 of its progress and all those scraps and pieces that I have saved on my PC are enough to finish it as I've planned, if I'm up to putting some effort in gluing them together. But I don't want to do it half-arsed way. Firstly, I have things of a major importance happening in my life now, and that's a bit of a struggle. They're leaving me little chance to dive into literally anything else, and they will take several months more, in case of a best scenario. And then, by a coincidence, Thargoids have come to be a popular topic, but they weren't like that when I was planning and posting the first parts. And my story has nothing to do with that screwed up pathetic joke of a game mechanics that you may see now; that's one of the biggest reasons for these motivation issues. And I don't want my stuff to be associated with it, but that seems to be inevitable now.
So, I guess that's quite an accurate description of things. And, to be short: "I'm not sure". Anyway, I'm still using INARA as an e-mail equivalent of sorts, to exchange messages with people whom I've got to know, and I'd like to keep it that way as long as possible.
And that's all for now, I think.